Got alot of thoughts running through my head.

Sometimes i wonder why i bother to try so hard and put in my best when it's not appreciated or recognized. It's a constant struggle for me, because i take pride in whatever i do and I always think of ways to improve certain process or areas ...To me, it's important to make a difference wherever you are, no matter how small you think the difference makes..

however something happened recently where i got told off for trying to improve things..its as though here, pple are happy with the way things are being done and if you try to change things, pple get offended because they cant take the constructive criticism and there is a lot of push back..

I expect the best from myself and likewise i expect the best from pple..To me, i see no point in negative criticism but constructive criticism is good because it makes us improve even if the process is painful..

There are so many great people in history that made a difference in people's lives not because they kept quiet and kept to the adage that "if it aint broke, dont fix it" and accepted whatever they are told to do or say..But because they dared to step out and change things because they feel strongly for the cause they believe in. Martin Luther King Jr made a difference to the minority in the US because of his strong conviction that everyone is equal, no matter how many pple were against the idea and ridiculed the notion.

but maybe i'm too naive and life doesn't work this way. I know some people think, "don't be silly, just do your work and go home on time" and some would say that i ask too many questions and shouldn't bother so much.. Feeling quite disillusioned with life..It seems i'm stepping on pple's toes recently, i'm thinking if i should lie low for a while sighz..but no matter what i think, i can't bear to think of the idea that i will conform to whatever people want me to be....to me, its sad if one day i no longer care and no longer have the passion i have today.

God, please give me strenth and wisdom to know what i should do from here.